I haven't blogged in ages. There are various reasons for this but when one looks back on the reasons or rather excuses, they seem ridiculous. The same can be said for my prayer life and reading of the scriptures. I desire to have a better prayer life. I desire to read the scriptures more but I create amazing excuses to absolve myself from my laziness. Oh Lord, forgive this week soul.
and sadly this lack of discipline has spilled over into my diet and exercise plan. 2017 has been terrible thus far. I weigh more than I ever have yet the resistance for change is indescribably enormous. Have I given up on caring about my appearance? Why does it not bother me more? Why don't I care more than I do? I suspect that the elevated stress levels have diminished my ability to care about my weight. I want to be better. I want to be fitter but wanting this is not helping me to actually do things. Oh Lord save me from my miserable self. Save me from my self-destructing behaviour. My spirit is willing but my flesh is weak. Save me...
and sadly this lack of discipline has spilled over into my diet and exercise plan. 2017 has been terrible thus far. I weigh more than I ever have yet the resistance for change is indescribably enormous. Have I given up on caring about my appearance? Why does it not bother me more? Why don't I care more than I do? I suspect that the elevated stress levels have diminished my ability to care about my weight. I want to be better. I want to be fitter but wanting this is not helping me to actually do things. Oh Lord save me from my miserable self. Save me from my self-destructing behaviour. My spirit is willing but my flesh is weak. Save me...
