I say a little prayer for you

As a Christian, we often say to each other, will keep you in my prayers, you are in my prayers, etc. 

but are we actually praying for each other? Are we actually saying: Jesus, here is XXX,this is what is happening to him/her. Can you please help?"

Do we? Or has it just become a thing we Christians say because it's we're unable to say anything else? 

It's so easy to send that little prayer emoji and then we think we're being there for that person. But is that what Jesus wants us to do? 

I think Jesus is tired of us making empty promises to each other about praying for each other and using His name when we make this promise. 

Perhaps we should say less and just pray more 

Anton-gone too soon

My liewe jeugmaatjie. Maat Anton. Gone too soon my friend. We're so shocked at your sudden passing. How do we make sense of this? Why did God let you die at your son's cricket match? Why did God let your son witness this. Oh Lord, only you know but my human mind is so confused, my soul in anguish and my heart is broken. 

We've share so many precious memories. The last few years as we've all grown up and lead separate lives, we'd see each other in passing and always promise to braai soon. Ai, how fickle we as humans are. We don't do the things that matter when we're alive. And then when death steals away a friend we sit and look back at the what ifs. 

The last time I saw you, you'd just come out of the 7/11 and call out to me. I didn't recognize at first and then I heard that distinct chuckle in your voice. That voice so warm and friendly. And then your infectious smile. I was scolding at you for being a stranger and of course you're just the one laughing off my rant. 

Anton there are so many memories just flooding my mind. As youth mates, we all shared a special journey during very formative years of our lives. We witnessed each other becoming adults. Struggling to make sense of this world but knowing that being anchored in Christ we'd be ok. 

I'll never forget when you and Sandra started dating. You couldn't believe your luck that she loved you back. Remember that one day at youth, we were like having a serious biblical discussion and sitting in this circle. Suddenly you place a piece of paper in the middle of the circle which reads: Sandra, I love you. It was hilarious. And of course so sweet. 

You loved Sandra so much. She was literally your queen. Sandra my friend o don't know how you're gonna get through this. If we are all so heartbroken and devastated, how must you be feeling. Your other half is gone. 

Lord hear our silent prayers because words fail us righr now 

Random thoughts of the day

I haven't blogged in ages. There are various reasons for this but when one looks back on the reasons or rather excuses, they seem ridiculous. The same can be said for my prayer life and reading of the scriptures. I desire to have a better prayer life. I desire to read the scriptures more but I create amazing excuses to absolve myself from my laziness. Oh Lord, forgive this week soul.

and sadly this lack of discipline has spilled over into my diet and exercise plan. 2017 has been terrible thus far. I weigh more than I ever have yet the resistance for change is indescribably enormous. Have I given up on caring about my appearance? Why does it not bother me more? Why don't I care more than I do? I suspect that the elevated stress levels  have diminished my ability to care about my weight. I want to be better. I want to be fitter but wanting this is not helping me to actually do things. Oh Lord save me from my miserable self. Save me from my self-destructing behaviour. My spirit is willing but my flesh is weak. Save me...